Monday, August 31, 2009

Sorry sorry.

张学友
太浓了吧 否则怎会苦得说不出话
每次都一个人 在自问自答 
我们的爱到底还在吗
已经淡了吧 多放些糖也很难有变化
不如喝完这杯 就各自回家 
别坐在对面欣赏我的挣扎
一场失败的爱情像个笑话 
热的时候心乱如麻
冷了以后看见自己够傻 
人怎么会如此容易无法自拔
一场无味的爱情像个谎话 
甜的时候只相信它
苦了以后每一句都可怕 
人怎么会如此难以了无牵挂

Yesterday, I went to a place and it brought back memories.
sigh 人怎么会如此难以了无牵挂

It’s a rainy day.
下雨天了怎么办…

Sunday, June 7, 2009

stand by me.

每段故事都有一篇剧情
每段爱情都像动人旋律
一颗真心却只向着你前进
也许爱越单纯越着迷
你是窗外另外一片风景
在你眼里我是什么关系
你的呼吸藏在我的爱情里
何时能诚实面对自己
我们从不开口那个言语
那一句我爱你
永远像少了勇气
别人都说
我和你之间的关系
没有人相信只有关心
我们从不正视那个问题
那一些是非题
总让人伤透脑筋
我会期待
爱情盛开那一个黎明
一定会有美丽的爱情

pretty tired from all the walking today. Went Jurong point in search of some decent clothes but apparently we came back quite empty handed. Oh we played at zone X. lol drums, daytona, mario kart, bball thing, made me forget about my troubles but then they came back soon after that so its okay ._. Finally home now watching night at the museum LOL. I want to watch night at the museum 2 pretty badly :o

I have to start on my homework soon sigh.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

TIME FLIES

yeah you know time flies? Figure J in Saga Maligna LOL.

So Rhythm XXIII flew past, people with pictures of me send me pl0x :D

I remembered how I didnt know what in the world a euphonium is until I got to see the thing itself.
I remembered how I used to dislike playing it.
I remembered how must I wanted to get into the clarinets or saxophones section.
I remembered how blur we all looked last time.
I remembered having sectionals with Xin tian, Wei hua and Jin kai, when we spent most of the time talking.
I remembered how we used to talk about stupid stuff.
I remembered how all the year ones got together to play rocking rondeau and trumpet voluntary.
I remembered how the seniors applauded us after our performance.
I remembered how nervous I was for my first indoor test.
I remembered how I screwed up my D major scale on my first indoor test.
I remembered how much fun we had playing captain ball during band chalet'06.
I remembered how much I enjoyed the music during rhythm 20.
I remembered how I grew to like my instrument.
I remembered how much mistakes I made when I had my first full band.
I remembered how scared I was when I played in front of my seniors.
I remembered how I became a senior when the year ones came in.
I remembered samantha in some blue uniform.
I remembered having fun in sectionals.
I remembered I was initially not is SYF'07.
I remembered how happy I was when I got in.
I remembered how difficult samurai was to me at that time.
I remembered working out the run in samurai.
I remembered always coming in wrongly for the start of samurai.
I remembered how I enjoyed playing sunrise.
I remembered the disappointment written on everyone's face when the result was announced.
I remembered how we hugged and cry together.
I remembered how this painful lesson made us more bonded.
I remembered how we encouraged one another and pick ourselves up.
I remembered how we worked together to piece up queen symphony.
I remembered por yee's solo that he always can't seem to get right LOL.
I remembered my first rhythm concert.
I remembered my second rhythm concert.
I remembered how we worked hard for poema and bass clarinet concerto.
I remembered brisbane.
I remembered hating band for that long period of time. (HMM ^^)
I remembered how I emo-ed during band practises.
I remembered how sectionals are so awkward.
I remembered being the QM for the temporary comm.
I remembered how we worked together to put together the band chalet.
I remembered how it rained and spoiled our plans.
I remembered bbq-ing in the drizzle.
I remembered having to step up to lead the section because we have no more wilson for support.
I remembered how difficult it was at first because I was so dependent on lionel.
I remembered hand-over when I became the vice chairperson.
I remembered I was unclear of what I am supposed to do.
I remembered how chiong and hiong band practises were.
I remembered how hard we tried and how much effort we put in for SYF'09.
I remembered how we played on stage on 3/4/09.
I remembered how they cried when the results were announced.
I remembered mrs wong's words to us.
I remembered how I had to learn to shout louder cause nobody hears me ._.
I remembered how I had to gather the courage just to give out an order (I was really shy then).
I remembered how we prepared for rhythm'09.
I remembered band camp when we really truly got together.
I remembered how I got closer to the year twos, they are really a wonderful bunch of people.
I remembered how we had intensive pratises but nobody complained.
I remembered the scoldings that we got.
I remembered how we reflected and moved on.
I remembered how today was such a blast.
I remembered hugging many people.
I remembered taking many pictures.
I remembered ruidi's solo was really AMAZZZEEING.
I remembered getting many gifts.
I remembered how difficult it is to lead such a big group.
I remembered how we made the music on stage today.
I remembered how we cheered.
I remembered how well we played stand by me.
I remembered how I was part of DHSSB on stage today.

All these, I remember.
4 years really passed like it was nothing, and I really can't bear to leave ):

Friday, June 5, 2009

RHYTHM XXIII


):

I know I'm supposed to be feeling excited and geared up for tomorrow but currently I'm really super sad.

1) Last concert
2) First and last concert with year twos
3) Second and last concert with year threes
4) An end to all the fun times we had
5) last official day with DHSSB (JH)
6) last time playing in JH band
7) MY JUNIORSSSSS GAH.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

LOL don't know why but I'm really quite depressed over this ._. can't seem to get over it. I know it's not the end la but still I don't want tomorrow to come cause it will fly past, yet I want it to come. (lol this is so contradicting). I really feel super attached to the band now and it's like part and parcel of my life already. Lol life will be weird without it ._.

Whatever.

This band camp may be the most tiring, yet it was the most memorable I ever had.
TO ALL MEMBERS OF DHSSB, I LOVE YOU.
军乐队一家人! <3

WHAT IF I CRY DURING RHYTHM LOL. D':

Thursday, June 4, 2009

眼底星空,流星开始坠落.

I LOVE YOU MRS WONG <3

I survived band camp. Oh well last band camp with junior high band so hopefully we can treasure some last moments with juniors. Super tiring gosh it totally drained all the energy from me. My lips, as usual, died lol it is as swollen as don't know what now ._. sigh super pain cannot even smile properly during phototaking. The power of credentium the previous band camp made my lips bleed lol. So when I took out my mouthpiece it was bloody. Jia you jia you junior high we can make it :D Though I know its super tiring but its the year fours 09's last rhythm, help us make it good (:

BAND BAND BAND BAND BAND BAND BAND. band keeps popping out in my mind. Guess I really can't bear to leave it after rhythm. It's our third and last concert. Everything just seems to fly past when you don't want it to come to an end. Sure it's tiring but the happy and precious memories that we share really beats everything. Ohman, and the thought of not being able to touch my dear eupho is really like !@#%#$&%&^$@. We shall make the best of rhythm, let's rock the stage :D

And this is to my juniors :D (though probably yall won't see but its kay)

Samantha: YOYO. Still remember the day I first saw you hahaha, my first impression of you LOL. Yup, so we have gone through so much so much, SYF'07 (the running in Samurai ._.) , Rhythm'07 (QUEEN <3 ), Rhythm '08 (first few bars of poema), SYF'09 (BAR 90 HAHA) and the upcoming rhythm '09. Really treasured all our laughters and times we spent together, practising hard and all the stupid stuff that we are not supposed to do during full band lol. STOP BULLYING ME KAY I'M YOUR SENIOR LEHHH :D yup, must bring our section to greater heights kay :D

Yan Ting: HI. Probably we only played together for a few months but really treasured the times when we practised hard together and braved through everything. This band camp especially brought us closer. please stop being so demure and quiet haha must talk more. Haha bet you enjoyed sitting beside me. Must remember my depression song kay then can sing when you need it LOL. Yup you have the potential so must jia you kay :D I have faith in you. Jia you for the upcoming rhythm.

Venus: YO. Long time no see haha. yup yup I also spent quite little time with you cause of syf. But really enjoyed all the sectionals that I had with you. Then somemore you never come for band camp ): haha but it's okay, we will have a great time on the day of rhythm itself kay. You also have the potential to do well so jia you kay and rock the stage on saturday :D Euphos FTW!

Oh yeah, I don't like being the parade commander ): Always seems to panic when there are like hundred over eyes looking at my direction lol. (especially when you forget to bring your specs out of the house and have to end up commanding to what seems like a mass of white stuff to you lol.) I LIKE RAISING THE FLAG :D

Okay, on a separate note, I think I have grown a lot. Some things are better not said here, so shall leave them for the other space. To sum up, the first half of this year was quite eventful, and I think I matured a lot from all these. blablabla, no emo nonsense I think yall are probably quite sick of them anyway.

好想知道你的100分
会给怎样的人
亲爱的你不要再陌生增加我戏份
我想问亲爱的你把感情升等
朋友变成情人
可不可以告诉我标准
不要让我一直等
听着那时间滴答的走
对街的你在点头
好象一个梦
渐渐走到我前头

random song that I thought of posting cause I'm listening to it now LOL.

I think I had occasional mood swings in class lol. Boring lessons made me think. Sorry and thanks to those who attempted cheering me up, <3.

I want a Mr Happy keychain. Went around searching for it but still cannot find D:

I had a ridiculous dream. I dreamt that I was going for piano lesson then apparently halfway my two sisters and myself got kidnapped. But the next moment I knew, I woke up on a bed in some air con room (which seems to be my bedroom) and apparently my two sisters were tied and gagged just outside the room (I had no idea how I know that but I think it appeared in a dream in the dream). I walked towards the door. Then,

kidnapper: 你是谁?
me: 我当然是the sole survivor la! (with some 伟大的 hand gestures, as if anyone will see since I'm in the dark dark air con room with myself lol )

so I opened the door and prepared to attack the kidnapper. But apparently the kidnapper was smarter, he stepped forward and hugged me lol. He hugged so tight I can't attack him or anything LOL. okay somehow I was so scared I woke up from the dream in the middle of the night -.- yes, it ended that abruptly LOL. I have weird dreams.

lol this post is in bits and pieces, I think I'm falling asleep, bye.

Monday, May 25, 2009

(:

I'm sorry guys, today was really a low low low day for me. Guess I will have to start believing in monday blues.

Was listening to this song on the bus.

我不想忘记你
我在向前走却像在退后
我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄
我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

quite nice though xin tian begs to differ.

Okay now I have a whole load of shit to do so byeee.
(I really want to take a break.)

Thursday, May 14, 2009

wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry.

今天早上下了一场大雨,冷冷的,我感觉到了寂寞和失望。

没有地球,太阳还是会绕。
当我在这里绕圈圈时,谁肯停下脚步,引导我走出这个我永远走不出的迷宫?

对不起,给我一首歌的时间,我会振作起来的。

(: 我对生活还是充满了希望。

Saturday, May 9, 2009

):

傻瓜
其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说
其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭
傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留
傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

some nice random song :D

sigh week 7 was a bad week, probably week 8 would be better with:
bio test
ace test
chinese test
mep word setting ._.

Wed
Passed the senior balloons. yeah and I'm super scared of them ._. That was a sad day.

Thurs
It's okay seniors yall have done your best and we still love yall <3. Had mep practical, kind of flopped it but well no use crying over spilled milk. Played ball but yeah was stoning half the time. sigh.

Fri
band was bad.

):
Today's a sad day. I don't know what I should be feeling or anything. It just feels empty. Had mugging session at Zhen Ling's house with dilys and her. We had a hard time figuring out cell division lol but good job we accomplished much. And now I'm back at home stoning and thinking.

(I don't know why but my stomach is churning when I'm typing all these)

okay I promised myself I will be a happy girl and I will be. Jia you to everyone out there.
(能不能给我一首歌的时间)

Friday, May 1, 2009

I wonder how, I wonder why.

50REACTIONS

1. Beer: ee.
2. Food: no plox not after pw meeting with packets of tidbits ._.
3. Relationships: confusing.
4. Crush: nice song lol.
5. Power Rangers: cool childhood.
6. Life: house.
7. The President: ._.
8. Yummy: gummy.
9. Car: ACE presentation -.-
10. Movie: 17 again whahaha zac efron :B
11. Halloween: black.
12. Sex: in the city
13. Religion: lol eat drink man woman
14. Hate: when everything comes crumbling in.
15. Fear: emo.
16. Marriage: lol dilys, bin bin, jolene, neam. (LOL@the drink stall uncle), (zac) LOL. (okay ignore the last one ._.)
17. Blondes: -
18. Slippers: i almost slipped today.
19. Shoes: I want a new pair.
20. Asians: WW2 = History essay.
21. Past time: no eye deer.
22. One night stand: lol some drama.
23. My cell phone: is beside me now.
24. Smoke: global warming.
25. Fantasy: lalaland.
27. High school life: HSM -.-
28. Pyjamas: bananas.
29. Stars: wish upon a star.
30. Center: zhong jian.
31. Alcohol: ee.
32. The word LOVE: don't know.
33. Friends: make you laugh and cry with them.
34. Money: monopoly.
35. Heartache: )':
36. Time: better in time.
37. Divorce: ._. bin bin (you think I don't want divorce you meh hmmph :@ haha)
38. Dogs: are scary.
39. Undies: captain underpants.
40. Parents: sleeping now.
41. Babies: i looked cute when i was one.
42. Ex: pensive.
43: Music: mep mid year practical is next week. right.
44. Color: green, yellow.
45. Weddings: eat eat eat.
46. Pizza: 62353535
47. Hangout: some emo corner on the bus, listen to music and stone.
48. Rest: to go a further distance.
49. Goal: sigh.
50. Inspiration: -.-

(from yanting's blog)

oh well there's some stuff i just can't think of anything to put.
I badly want to do another long long quiz who can spare me one LOL. I'm like bored.
sigh, byebye/

:/

Thursday, April 23, 2009

There's no use looking back or wondering,

sigh.

突然好想你
词曲:五月天阿信

最怕空气突然安静 最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛着 不平息
最怕突然 听到你的消息
想念如果会有声音 不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今 终于让自己属于 我自己
只剩眼泪 还骗不过自己
突然好想你 你会在哪里 过得快乐或委屈
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆 突然模糊的眼睛
我们像一首最美丽的歌曲 变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你 带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下 最痛的纪念品
我们 那么甜那么美那么相信
那么疯那么热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去
突然好想你 你会在哪里 过得快乐或委屈
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆 突然模糊的眼睛
最怕空气突然安静 最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛着 不平息
最怕突然 听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决心自己过 没有你
却又突然 听到你的消息


:(:
Happy/sad?
Ohwellzz.

Monday, April 20, 2009

sichengyi

Summary for today:

1. ):
2. pissed.
3. tired.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

I just wanna be with you.

Oh well fourth post for the blog.

Everything is not going well these few days and I have been constantly wondering what had went wrong. But well, no answers found yet.

Band yesterday was not as good as expected I guess we really have to do something about it. For the juniors, and ourselves. but well, everything will turn out fine i guess, cause we are a family (:
(and for me, I don't want to lose the feeling anymore, it was long before I found it back)

Ball after that was short but fun well wasn't really in the mood to play but really felt like playing ._. (lol I think I'm not making any sense). Badly wanted to play basketball but there wasn't really any court or ball so sigh. Dinner after that was okayy. In short, the day was quite bad for me except during maths lesson when valencia was totally being stupid for making me laugh so much. (HAHAHA no offence ._. )

Why must it always be like a dream then everything comes crashing down and brings you back to reality? oh well I think we just have to fight for it. Jia you to everyone of you out there.

I think something's gone very wrong with me don't ask me what I have no idea. What's with all the _______. Something just got over me, blah.

I guess it will be better in time so yeah, I shall leave it for now.

I just woke up from my afternoon nap and am not in the mood to do everything and anything but I have chem critique staring at me now so I think I should go settle it first.

kkkkkbyeee

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Upside down.

):

I'm sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

This world is seriously driving me crazy or maybe I'm the one that has issues. I don't know but I think I have occasional mood swings that are totally screwing everything up. kay sorry I know I'm not making sense bye.

Life is but a dream.

sigh,
I think,
My life is in a mess ._.
oh w/e not going to think so much, it's driving me nuts.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DILYS LOVE (:

/hmm, I hope I'm going the correct way.
(I saw something that made my heart feel funny just now ._. )

Friday, April 10, 2009

Can i have this dance?

Hi world.

It's been one whole month since i last blogged ._.
hmm, well many things happened and I guess as usual I am quite lazy to blog about them (:
so, I shall just mention 3 things before going off to sleep (:

1. HAPPY BIRTHDAY VEUNS (:

2. HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE DILYS (:

3. CLASS OUTING WAS SUPER FUN. HEHE HAD FUN WITH 4I (LOL WE ARE CRAZY PEOPLE THAT DESTROYS PLAYGROUNDS ._.)

lol kay tired, bye (: